You do not choose your recovered weight, shape, or dress size.
That’s the whole point.
You let go of the ‘control’, and let your body maintain its own optimal size (which it is perfectly capable of, without restriction/calorie counting/workouts ‘just in case’).
this was a really big deal for me to see today.
just a few hours ago, i was in tears about my body again.
ben had to remind me that my body is still trying to rebound from years and years of being sick.
i have gained 22 pounds from my lowest weight… i think about that number a lot. i get very fixated on it. “if i could just lose 5/10/15 of those pounds i would look so much better…” but what i have been losing sight of is that by gaining 22 pounds, i got my life back. i am healthy and happy and strong - actually strong! i can lift and climb and hike and play!
by letting my body heal on its own, without restricting, my body fat percentage, my weight, and my clothing size has certainly increased… but i have a life now. and that is everything.
i’m on vacation i’m on vacation i’m on vacation!
tonight i am getting my SEPTUM pierced and monday is ben and i’s anniversary trip to the coast and i am so happy and excited and in love.
ben gives the best hugs.
Eyewitnesses: He was on his knees with his hands up.
Medical examiner: There was no gunpowder residue on Mike Brown, no sign of struggle, and there were entry wounds on the inside of his arms and the top of his head, implying he was on his knees with his hands up.
Convenience store owner and clerk: There was no robbery and we didn't call the cops.
Ferguson PD: Okay, we admit it, Wilson didn't know anything happened at the convenience store and we determined no crime was committed.
White people: Nobody can say what happened! We still have to wait for the facts to come in!